Welcoming my son, Adam, into the world.
Today I've been a mom for two weeks. Two weeks ago on the morning of my 30th birthday, I felt a pop in my uterus and had that moment of realization that my life was about to change forever. Being pregnant prepares you somewhat, but never as much as holding your actual child in your arms.
So here are the quick and not-so-dirty details of the labor: Almost exactly 12 hours, start to finish. Started labor at 7:39am and Adam was born at 7:37pm. Left for the hospital at 9:30am when Patrick got back from his overnight retreat he was due to be at for 4 days. I had drugs at 1:30 (I don't know how people can do it without) due to Adam being turned around and giving me terrible back labor. And by 3:30, I was pushing. But 4 hours later, no baby and a very exhausted Christina. At this point nothing hurt anymore (god those epiderals are miracle workers!), it was just EXHAUSTING pushing with all my might for so long. The birthing part was really strange to feel. Again, not painful, just bizarre. They asked if I wanted a mirror, but I declined. I was loving watching Patrick's expression. It was incredible to watch our son being born and be able to watch his face as he became a dad. Then, the baby was on my chest, eyes wide open and not even a wimper. That moment was truly indescribable. I mean, here is this tiny human I had been carrying around in me laying on my chest. Unreal!
Patrick was so moved and in love instantly.
And so was I (and also REALLY TIRED!).
And now I "get it" more. Its like I have this new level of awareness because of him. I understand the life cycle a lot more intimately. I understand myself and my relationship on a deeper level. I love stronger and feel protective over my family.
Plus, he's just so damn cute! I can't stop looking at him!
I try not to just stare at him all day. I make time for other things too. But the hours just slip by now. Its very enjoyable.
Just wanted to quickly update before we go off on our nightly walk around the neighborhood. I'm nearly healed up and back in action (well, another 4 weeks until I can technically be considered fully healed). Also, on the sleep tip - we usually get about 3-4 hours of sleep at a time. Tough schedule to adjust to. Hence the major baggage under my eyes.